Paul had taken me on another date in the spring of 2009. At the end of this date we went out on his trampoline in his backyard and watched a movie.
(we watched the movie Ghost, but had to turn it off half way through because it was scary to me!)
When the movie ended we layed on the trampoline and just talked.
Paul, was the one that was brave about this topic. He decided to express to me his feelings. He literally poured out his heart to me, telling me how much he adores me and how different i was from all the other girls. He says all of this and not a peep comes out of my mouth. I had been told this nonsense by many other boys who just ended up using me and breaking my heart. And i really liked Paul, so when he shared his feelings like this it started to remind me of all the other boys and i hated to think that Paul could be the same. As he finished telling me everything he felt, i simply said "thank you, i really enjoy being around you to." and left it at that. I thought he was just trying to get a little smoochin for all that he said. But he truly was being sincere and genuine in the things he felt for me. So the night ended with that conversation not going anywhere else, i said goodnight and went home. The next morning, i woke up and decided to run away! So i called a boy that i has met a few times and asked him if he wanted to drive to Las Vegas with me to see my aunt. He was up for the adventure and a few hours later we were on our way. Now, i know that this was slightly harsh because Paul and i had gone on a few dates and the night before he tells me all these things about how he wants to be with me. But, i didnt believe them, i figured that he was just like the rest. It wasn't until i saw his reaction to how sad he was that i spent the weekend with another guy. He was sad and upset, and quite frankly didn't want to have much to do with me anymore. I had some serious making up to do! I realized that all those things we talked about, that he meant them. He didn't want to share me with anyone else. So i started fighting hard for him! Leaving him letters, treats, etc.
Paul had to go in to have nose surgery done, and i figured that this would be the perfect time to show him how much i cared, and prove to him that i was sorry for freaking out. So i made him a big blanket. I wrapped it up and put together a little gift basket. When he was home from the hospital i swung by his house to drop it off to him! I think it helped my situation a bit that he was slightly drugged up from the pain meds, because he was very open to hear what i had to say!
From that moment on....we we're official!
We spent as much time as we could together, although both of us were very busy! I was working full-time at a dental office and going to school at UVU. and Paul was finishing up at the University of Utah, and submitting all of his dental school applications, flying all over the country doing his interviews etc. I felt so lucky to have him in my life, over the next few months he taught me so much about myself. He proved to me that there really are good men in this world and that i deserved to be with one of them. He helped to bring me closer to my father in heaven and help strengthen my testimony.
Fast forward to July 28, 2009. It was my birthday and Paul had a whole surprise that night planned for me. He picked me up from work and took me to my favorite restaurant for sushi. We then drove out to daybreak and he parked in front of the waterfront park there. He opened the trunk and had a change of clothes, my swimsuit and towel. He told me that he remembered asking me a question on our first date "what would you do if you had one day left to live" He said,"you told me you would fly your family out to Rhode Island beach and make "drippy" sand castles." so we are going to make drippy sand castles. I almost started floating. I thought, is he for real.... A. how does he remember that and B. how cute is that, that he brought me out here to really do that. So we spent the night swimming and making sand castles on the shore.
Early that day i had a talk with my mom about how she knew she was in love with my dad. I told her that i was pretty sure that i had fallen in love with Paul, but i was afraid because i didn't know how to tell him. So while on this date i decided that i just HAD to tell him! i had to!!! He drove me home and he told me he would lay with me until i fell asleep. So we went to my room and he tucked me in bed and held me tight. i was so nervous, i felt slightly sick to my stomach. I had never been in love before, never told and one that before and for pete sakes what if he didnt say it back. It was a slightly stressful situation. I said to Paul, "Paul, i have to tell you something." "oka, whit, what is it" then there was silence...... for a long time..... a really long time. I finally got up th courage to come out and say it. So i said "Paul, I lov.." All of the sudden Paul lets out a super loud snore and is SOUND asleep. I was livid!!!! i pushed him in the side and rolled over angry! Of course he woke up from the shove, and said whats wrong whats wrong. I was mad at him now, and so it took even longer for me to get the courage to say it again. But once i said it, he got teary eyed and said "wait, what?" haha i said you heard me now say it back hurry, i am nervous. So of course he responded back and Said, "well of course i love you whitney, i just wanted to hear you say that again" It is always a joke now how he fell asleep the first time i tried to tell him i love him, it was payback for when he first expressed his feelings towards me in the spring. TO BE CONTINUED.....
Oh my I'm in love with this story... I never had heard about the first "I love you." I just love you Whit and so happy you found your perfect other half in Paul.
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